Dear Recovery,
Why is it sometimes that I don't like you? You are only there to help me feel better and be the best me possible. You don't abandon me...you are who you are and what you are all of the time...your 12 steps are sturdy, true and unfailing as long as I am working you. Even when I don't work you...you are still you. I am stronger, wiser, more clear headed for having followed you. So why do I not like you sometimes?
Signed, the Recoverer...
Dear Recoverer:
You are becoming a version of yourself that you do not recognize. Perhaps you have spent years being told that you are none of the things you now see in the mirror, and you are a bit skeptical. Maybe at first you don't feel comfortable in this new skin, but I must tell you that as you follow me day by day, moment by moment and keep on doing what you are doing, eventually it won't feel so foreign.
signed, Recovery
RECOVERER: So, when I step out on my own to do something that I feel is right because of the strong urge from my higher power, and all of the fibers of my being (or at least a lot of those fibers) are telling me, "CRAWL BACK UNDER YOUR ROCK, ROLL OVER, AND PLAY DEAD" I should keep walking toward you and away from those old demons? Because the demons are sent to me via the disease?
RECOVERY: Now you are getting it Recoverer. Have faith that your higher power is guiding you along the path that is intended for you. Keep listening, keep asking, keep surrounding yourself with friends from the program and family and positive things, keep reading, and reading and reading, and writing. When you take steps toward me, you are on the very path that your HP has carved out for you. There will be bumps, and sometimes you will feel awkward or uncomfortable, but you are doing what you should when you listen to your HP. You have never acted in these healthy ways, and your fibers are not used to this...but have faith in the program, the 12 steps, the partners, the friends, the family in the rooms, and in yourself. This new way of thinking is a right way, and you have to live on trust and start to fake it until you make it.
Why is it sometimes that I don't like you? You are only there to help me feel better and be the best me possible. You don't abandon me...you are who you are and what you are all of the time...your 12 steps are sturdy, true and unfailing as long as I am working you. Even when I don't work you...you are still you. I am stronger, wiser, more clear headed for having followed you. So why do I not like you sometimes?
Signed, the Recoverer...
Dear Recoverer:
You are becoming a version of yourself that you do not recognize. Perhaps you have spent years being told that you are none of the things you now see in the mirror, and you are a bit skeptical. Maybe at first you don't feel comfortable in this new skin, but I must tell you that as you follow me day by day, moment by moment and keep on doing what you are doing, eventually it won't feel so foreign.
signed, Recovery
RECOVERER: So, when I step out on my own to do something that I feel is right because of the strong urge from my higher power, and all of the fibers of my being (or at least a lot of those fibers) are telling me, "CRAWL BACK UNDER YOUR ROCK, ROLL OVER, AND PLAY DEAD" I should keep walking toward you and away from those old demons? Because the demons are sent to me via the disease?
RECOVERY: Now you are getting it Recoverer. Have faith that your higher power is guiding you along the path that is intended for you. Keep listening, keep asking, keep surrounding yourself with friends from the program and family and positive things, keep reading, and reading and reading, and writing. When you take steps toward me, you are on the very path that your HP has carved out for you. There will be bumps, and sometimes you will feel awkward or uncomfortable, but you are doing what you should when you listen to your HP. You have never acted in these healthy ways, and your fibers are not used to this...but have faith in the program, the 12 steps, the partners, the friends, the family in the rooms, and in yourself. This new way of thinking is a right way, and you have to live on trust and start to fake it until you make it.
RECOVERER: Well, then, today I turn my will and my life over to you again HP, I cannot do this on my own, things have become unmanageable once again, and I need you to guide my words and my steps and my thoughts, remove these awkward feelings from me, these guilty feelings, this icky, sad, anxious, doubt-ridden fearfulness that consumes me...take it from me and please replace it with your loving kindness, your confidence, your strength, your love and support. I trust you first and always. Please disable my "forgetter" and help me remember many times throughout each day that I am on the right path as long as I am travelling with you. In your name, I pray...Amen!!!
RECOVERY: You got it Recoverer!!! Now say it with me...."God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen...Keep coming back, it works if you work it!!!"
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